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A lovely weekend :)

Friday night
And so we saw everyone crowding in as usual, hugging, smiling, high-fiving.... And I'm introduced to MORE people! Some are lovely, some are nice, and some... no offence, but are annoyingly dumb.
And so.... I see this guy I've met before, but vaguely. A cute face, hot hair. Dark hair, with a blonde fringe, which surprisingly suits him. At first, he sounds like he'd be one of the cool kids, who's really popular. But after knowing him, I can see how he can be annoying. But yeah, we got on really well. I wasn't good with the sleeping... ehem.. 30 mins for one night?! But he came into the room I was sat in (at 3am) and cuddled me. He then sat in the seat next to me, and tried to get me to sleep. Of course he failed, but he was sweet for being there with me. Resting his head on my shoulder, I waited for him to sleep. He did.
Personally, I blame the coffee..... But yeah, I thought he was cute, but now.. he's just seen as a friend. Oh. And everyone thought they saw a spark between us.. but no. We're just quite close. And get on well. And... He can pick me up.. which is odd seeing as he's a bit smaller than me.
Old friends still rock :) Love them all. George was so adorable, as ever. He's funny, telling me how disappointing I am to him, telling me to 'get out' and pushing me on the swing so that I lose balance and have to jump off in order to stay alive. He told me I was light, so that obviously made me feel better.
Ellen had to dump her boyfriend because she is so busy. She needed some LOVE and I gave that to her. Loads of cuddles and talks. She missed me, she'd said.

Saturday
Considering my lack of sleep, I survived. I was still as hyper as usual. Ellen, bless her, is so busy that she is leaving young leaders for a few months. But I'm always there for her, no matter what.So we were up early, around 7:30 ish. Harry walked in early, only in a pair of jeans. He's got a hot body ^.^ Not that I was looking...... O.O...... but he does. I swear he works out. He smiled at me and went in for a shower.
George and TomL came in aswell, looking WORSE than me. Bags under their eyes... wth? 'How are you two doing, you look a bit messed up....' 'Oh, thanks... Nah, I feel ok. Slept well, look rough, how well did you sleep?' 'Erm, 30 mins?' 'My God! You look better than us two,'
I'll take that as a compliment then... :L
So after breakfast I think I remember us having a few modules to cover, a lot of them were writing involved, etc. So boring, but fun because you were with wacko-people of the moon.
I was complimented a few times that day though. Lovely eyes, light, etc. So that made me feel better.
When I was with Ellen and George, this new guy appeared. I asked Ellen who it was, and she told me he was called Tom. He had blonde curls, greeny-blue eyes, skinny and tall-ish. He wore a green top with Jeans and pumps, and looked nice, I must admit.
Feeling shy, I didn't want to be awkward and introduce myself, so I went for the option of talking to nearby friends so he could slyly come and join. Of which he did ^__^
We spoke on the Saturday night, after the film, and got on quite well. He's cute and has a posh-like accent. He's one of those who aims to tickle you whenever. So quite playful. :)
GOD. Is he one I'm falling for? Well... I guess he's closer than Francois? eh? Hmph. I hate myself.


Sunday
Woke up early-ish, and chose to help out with the breakfast. I was assigned to thee bacon. It was cheap crap, but worked all the same.
The Tom guy (whom I will call Potty [surname-nickname]) was a keano and came to watch us cook. He helped me out, and asked if I wanted him to do some. I let him.
He's good in the kitchen! :L Espcially when I qhip out my FAIRY bubbles and play-fight. I got George, Harry, Issy and Potty WET :D I couldn't resist. There were so many bubbles and so little time. SQUISH in their hair, on their arms. NOICE. :P
Potty got thee fringe wet.... O.O the fool.
We had the 'gaming' session too. I got my ankles tied to someone elses ankle with a strong knot, and we had to run to fetch a ball. I was in such a laughing fit, I fell over and knowcked all three of us down. GOSH it was fun!
Then we played the 'holding hands-circle' one. This involved us all holding hands and getting twisted. But Scott ruined it.
Scott said something to me, with everone around to hear, about me. I looked away. Shy. Hiding. Hiding myself. My identity. A shy boy called Ben looked up at me to see my expression. But I was hidden. I looked away from everyone, and moved my fringe so it covered my face. Tears strolled down my cheeks, running of my jaw. They asked me to move to sort the circle out. I didn't move. Scott moved so he was next to me.
Scott: Are you okay?
Me: Fuck off Scott (i budged his arm)
Scott: I'm sorry
Me: You're not
As soon as we were freed (I didn't want to walk out mid-game) I walked over to Cathie "Look, I'm gonna go back" "Oh? Sure"
I walked away, tears still left on my cheeks. I walked through to the end of the field, and as soon as I knew I was out of sight, I ran. I ran to the cabin-place. As soon as I was in I saw Ellen with her twisted ankle on a chair.
Ellen: Are you okay sweetie? What's happened?
Me: I'm SO sorry
I went to the bin to throw up. But nothing came up. Nothing wanted to budge.
I grabbed a towel and wiped my whole face. Cathie came un very soon after.
I explained to them what happened. And now Ellen knows why I get bullied.
I don't want anyone to know. Because it's a physical thing I hide.
It irritates me. It hurts me. It's killing me inside.
I want to run away from it all.


I was awarded 3 badges that day. First Aid. Young Leader. Platinum Scouting. Photos were taken. I was sat with Tom and Issy. Tom sat next to George. I think we're nice friends :) Yay. He likes to push me on the swings like George so I get extremely dizzy. He can push me too :L So obviously I'm not THAT heavy (rising that self-esteem step-by-step) He made me giggle during the awards.


Even better though: Imi knows him. And thinks it's cute I like him, and that I know him too! 'OMG, SOMEONE WHO KNOWS MY FRIEND!!!'
She wrote in our msn convo:
Potty + Stargirl = perfect couple.
I'm his type apparently :) But does he like me back, that is thee question.


Look at me with my guy things.!.!.! I'm obsessed...... :)