No. Please don't. No.


:-(

My future says "Whut?"

University

after

University

after

more

Universities.

Mum's kean for me to find a place now.

Prospectus' are coming through our letter boxes with my name on them. I've found 6 already, and I've just started back at school.

My favourite I must admit, is Aberystwyth.

I'm wanting to study the Arts. Performance, perhaps. Maybe media. I don't know for certain. But Mum's taking me everywhere to see these Universities. I will be bom-barded.

Don't you just hate it when...

... you don't know what the fuck is going on.

They say "Yeah, talk soon, my sister's taking my LAPTOP!" and then they eventually come back on, and no. Nothing. I really was waiting for something.

And I'm also too smiley, says myself, argh.

Metric = Gold Guns Girls

Paramore plays at the M.E.N on Friday the 19th of November 2010.

I'm going with Ellen and one other person.

Peter is going, may also go with brother. Is going to look for us.

Heather is going with Vikki too.

My Fair Lady auditions are next week exactly.

I know that I will audition. I just don't believe that I will get in.

Last time I got through to the call-backs. But my cold made me sound shit.

I'm going to end up getting stressed over this. Seriously badly. And I will get ill once more.

I hate these stressful situations, where I want to be seen, but not in that light of afailure.

I must succeed. But singing in public hasn't yet been trialed. I was meant to do it in June. But that was cancelled.

Aaaaaaarrrrrrgggggghhhhhh.

I'm in form 12E. Yes, E once again holds my name. Coincidence?

I think not

But I've made great friends with Ellie. She's especially small, but lovely all the same, and is so so talented at drama.
Plus, there is also Joe in our form, who is sweet, cute, blah. He smiles at me, laughs with me, and is aww. I do wish something would happen. But nothing's happened to me in 5/6 months. I'm too used to waiting, I want that spark again. But he does that side glance, where he looks around, and :3 He's great.

Wait

Wait

Wait

So I havent said a lot

But actually, I've just started back at school. Sixth form, you weiner-faces.

It's scaryish. I'm Ellie's (new girl) mentor. She's really nice, dramatic, and yeah. Then there's the other few who are new in the form 12E. There's Lorna. As a matter-of-fact, I know she's friends with this girl on the bus who's not at all happy with me, because I basically told her to

STOP BITCHIN'

And has she? Erm, no. But then there was Freddie, and she's really into photography, seems nice too. Then Jenna, who's like quieter but hangs with the fashionista people. Then Alex, who came across as smiley and nice, and he came from Dallam. Then there was Joe, and he's super cute with brown eyes, and hnng. (Yes I know of hnng, I'm also one... Not a hnng, obviously) And he smiled when I smiled, like mega big, and ahh. He also said that cute bye to me:D

anywho, brb.