I'm hurting RIGHT NOW.

I smell of him. So sweet and fresh.

Even the kisses were wonderful (not that they never are) But this day they were more special.

He knew I was shy around parents, so he was discreet.

He even did the things i love people to do.

Russled the back of my hair when we kissed, stroked my arm, held my waist.

I can't stop crying. The fool.

He smells so nice, and he is so lovely.

He maes me laugh :L ARGH. Even my family likes him.

That never happens?!

Eurgh. :( Help me pick up these pieces.

Here is my update

Pleasure Beach!

So, I'm persuading him to go on the TANGO one..

'Please, please, please,'
'no, no, no,'
He places his arm around me and I snuggle up.

We're walking by the way.
And I say, 'Erm... I like you,'

His reply is, 'I like you too,'

Me and mel go on the ride! (fun!) and then after, we're walking to the car to see my Mom. I see my mom, warn chris, and move Francois' arms so we're holding hands slyly. I let go when my mom can see.
We go into a shop
and my mom soon leaves
and Francois holds my hand, walks me to the 'teddy section' xD LOL and he spins me to kiss me.

 Msn conversation.
*So we make the most of the oppurtunity up to monday?
 
*you mean together?
 
*yep
 
*yes please!
 
*If you prefer stop now I would understand, to not become more attached
 
*I know what you mean.. But I don't know I want to be with you :/
 
*Owwww it's so cute (L)
 
*Erm. I want to stay
 
*Want to stay like continue up to monday ?
 
*Yes
 
*Sure ?
 
*Yup
 
*now you? I will understand
 
*Yeah i know. but i agree with you (L)
:) YEAH!

AMAZING DAY. UPDATE LATER!

Again I have done bad.
No, did do bad.
I told Charis that Ethan had sex with a 14 year old, and he was 15, on the first date, AND the first time he met her.
Sorry, I'm bad?
Eurgh.
He judges me.
Yes, he trusted me.
But he's in the wrong here, not quite me.
Annie-Beth, Niamh, Becci, Sarah, Charis and me all know.
And a) he blames it on me
b) he then obviously doesn't want me as a friend.
Fuck it.
I don't care.
I have lovely people around me who can actually take care of me when I'm ill.


Thank Emmm for the MASSIVE hug today.
It did cheer me up.


And Libby was lovely, always taking me to the loos to (don't look) get sick.


Eurgh, this is one terrible bug.
Why'd Francois choose to like me.... No. I want him to.
Why'd the cold come to me NOW?
Eurgh, I want more kisses >.>
Sick, Cold, Shakes, etc....  Bleh.

Full story.
Megazone, a lazer adventure game, went with the french.
It was AWESOME.
I loved every part.
Even having my eye jabbed by a gun (because I ran into it)
Yes, it hurt like anything, Because I am SO clumsy.
But this got me and Francois closer.
He said sorry and gave me hugs etc.

We were in the same team.
But then the teams split, but I was lucky enough to stay with him, but with the instructor helping.
We went to our base, and the instructor ran off.
Me and Francois were sat together waiting, I just kept glancing at him (i am SO glad i was not drewling [spelling?] and was admiring his.. cuteness..?)
And I think he was doing the same!....
Who knows.
And then.
All of a sudden, he places his hand under my chin, and gently pulls my face upto his, and we kiss.
The kiss, was only 3 seconds. But perfect in every single way.
But we were interrupted by the instructor (he didn't see us) and so we had to go (to kill the others :L)
I remember Francois telling me he would kiss me, but i told him i'd be shy, so i bet he wouldn't catch me. This was the 'bet'.
And on my status, was 'is happy, but lost the bet' OBV.
Chris comments a 'lol'. He knew about the bet.
Francois comments a 'Gonna be another time =]'
Does this mean there's another kiss?!?!
God, I hope so.

So yes, I am happy, and I shouldn't be.
I'm falling for a guy I will see this week, and next month, and that is it. :|

Happy

Happy

Happy

Happy

Happy

Happy

Excentric?

Happy

Happy

Happy

Happy

Happy

Happy

I know I shouldn't be, But I am

Happy

Happy

Happy

Happy

Happy

Happy

I am a very silly girl.

Very silly.

I do not know what I want.

And that is the truth.

I either want this person, or that person.

Only one of which I know has feelings for me back.

The other, I do not know.

But I feel that I want the one who I don't know wants me, to want me.

(Makes no sense to you guys, sorry)

The one I do really want, is french...

Yes, french.

Has the cutest accent.

Is funny.

Strange.

And even hugs good.

But not long enough... >.>

I hate quick hugs.

But still.

Wouldn't it be romantic?

RAR.

I am so very silly.

What to do...

Wait?

That sounds like a plan, of which I detest.

My french needs improving.

Melanie will have to help me there.

Oh.

And they are lucky to be honest!

Bowling.Megazone.Parties.Blackpool Pleasure Beach.Pantomimes.

Tsch... But Dinsey Land Paris is better... Thank you Melanie :D 

French Exchange.


If you haven't already noticed, I now have a french student over. She speaks amazing English, is pretty, and rocks! :D she's awesome.
AND.
When we were waiting for the bus, it finally arrived, and I was in a giddy mood and waved my hands at random french kids!
And I spotted Francois, who didnt notice me..
Meh, he came off the bus to see Chris (his partner) and I shout his name, he comes over, gives me a hug, and bends his neck down (as if i am to whisper something) but i automaticaly, knowing what i am to do, kiss both his cheeks.
And then, Sally, Libby, Helen, Chris + Matthew, turn around going WOOO, look, you've already hooked someone.
Ok. I know I have Ieuan, but Francois is... erm... A bit more, like me? Hm. Crap
I feel bad.
But seriously, with the amount of time i am to spend with him,. and the promises he's already made (a proper kiss), i should atleast show him im interested?
Eek.
No.
Bad Harriet.
Naughty thoughts.
You're worse than I thought.
Keep clear.


Uh-oh.

Haha. Isn't it funny, when you realise that you have done NO work over the holidays, and leave it until the last day. Tsch, it is funny. But I think I should have done a bit more over the holidays. Hm. Maybe net time, eh?

I must do all my work today, and then have a week tomorrow with Melanie and show her the best parts up north. Ok. There aren't too many. But Pleasure Beach should be great.

WOO One week!!

And I'm over there in a month :D:D Woo.

Twas a good day.

Got up at 10ish (Great for me!)

Went into Carnforth in really colourful clothes so made people stop and stare :D

Then into Lancaster avec ma mere

We bought some stuff from REEF and the people there are so friendly

I have a new top with a cute little girl on the front

Then back home to earn myself a tenner by sorting the garden out

Now I need to wait until I get the money and I can buy Sims3!!!!!

I'm so close too.

And tomorrow, unless Ellen says it's a no-no, I'm going in to see her.

Ok, so it seems that no one wants to go into town.

Oh well. Maybe Saturday then.

 Although that's not going to plan, I will feel amazing.

I'll feel fresh, and wonderful.

 It isn't anything to do with love, but about how I feel about myself.

No, not go to the Gym. That was what I did last year :L

No, this is something closer to home.

 Meh. Thank you, Mom. Love you loads. x

A preview into my Evening.

My phone --> Sean's

'Are'

(yes, it did mess up!)

=.=

Sean's --> Mine

'Eh ? X x x'

(Ahh, his x's)

^.^

Mine --> Sean's

'This phone is an official tard! 

Yeah, wna venture into town? 

Mebs avatar this time? 

People are bailling x x x'

Sean's --> Mine

'Im afraid iv lost my wallet :-( x x x'

(REJECTED, Harriet. Haha, FAIL. Maybe he does like you and he has.... Or maybe it's an excuse?)

No, he does like me. Why on earth did we get on so well that time?

My hair is sh-sh-sh-sh-shorter. Yaya.

No colour though.

Mom said,

'Stay natural, people'd kill to have your colour. So keep it like that, please, for a few years at least.'

As it's you, fine.

Although, I do have some advise from the hair people.

"Your hair would suit purples, oranges/gingers and reds."

Mmhmm. Sexy colours, no?

Mom said she'd get me themmm. :D

 As hair extensions.. But heh.

Did this make you laugh as much as me?

Addiction of the Day is...

(Drum roll please)

COFFEE with milk and sugar.

I normally used to have it without the above. Smeh. It's niiiiice.

As are pancakes ;D

Uh-oh.

Mom got back (she passed her exams!) But told me off for uploading the wrong piece of work for my ICT. Eurgh. THE TEACHER WAS THERE WHEN I UPLOADED IT. Silly Mrs Bennett. Fancy telling my mum I did something else wrong. Do you not know how much shit I am now in? Seriously? What is the point in emailing my parents. I'm already one of your best students. Tsch, fine, betray me, see if I care. :(

Seriously, pull yourself together. Please don't cry. You've done so well today. Your mom didn't mean to be so harsh. Just talk to your teacher when you get back. Everything will be fine..

http://www.facebook.com/home.php#!/group.php?gid=197979564877&ref=ts

Tantra homework in Buddhism.

Here's some advice, do not type 'Tantra' on it's own. 

It does not come up with that of Buddhism. Istead - sexual stff.

Hahahaaaaaaa. Silly me. No wonder Mr Wilson (an ACE teacher) told us it had something to do with 'sexy' things - Cue, his time to do some WEIRD actions - Hahaaaaaaaa.

Me and Hannah - Fail.

xD

No one laughs at God in a hospital
No one laughs at God in a war
No one’s laughing at God
When they’re starving or freezing or so very poor

No one laughs at God
When the doctor calls after some routine tests
No one’s laughing at God
When it’s gotten real late
And their kid’s not back from the party yet

No one laughs at God
When their airplane start to uncontrollably shake
No one’s laughing at God
When they see the one they love, hand in hand with someone else
And they hope that they’re mistaken

No one laughs at God
When the cops knock on their door
And they say we got some bad news, sir
No one’s laughing at God
When there’s a famine or fire or flood

*Chorus*
But God can be funny
At a cocktail party when listening to a good God-themed joke, or
Or when the crazies say He hates us
And they get so red in the head you think they’re ‘bout to choke
God can be funny,
When told he’ll give you money if you just pray the right way
And when presented like a genie who does magic like Houdini
Or grants wishes like Jiminy Cricket and Santa Claus
God can be so hilarious
Ha ha
Ha ha

No one laughs at God in a hospital
No one laughs at God in a war
No one’s laughing at God
When they’ve lost all they’ve got

And they don’t know what for

No one laughs at God on the day they realize
That the last sight they’ll ever see is a pair of hateful eyes
No one’s laughing at God when they’re saying their goodbyes
 

But God can be funny
At a cocktail party when listening to a good God-themed joke, or
Or when the crazies say He hates us
And they get so red in the head you think they’re ‘bout to choke
God can be funny,
When told he’ll give you money if you just pray the right way
And when presented like a genie who does magic like Houdini
Or grants wishes like Jiminy Cricket and Santa Claus
God can be so hilarious

No one laughs at God in a hospital
No one laughs at God in a war
No one laughs at God in a hospital
No one laughs at God in a war
No one laughing at God in hospital
No one’s laughing at God in a war
No one’s laughing at God when they’re starving or freezing or so very
poor

No one’s laughing at God
No one’s laughing at God
No one’s laughing at God
We’re all laughing with God

Regina Spektor – Laughing With

A truely wonderful song. It makes you think.

'No one laughs at God'

Pasta Sauce!

Baked beans

A bit of chopped tomatoes

Mayonaise

Cream

Garlic puree

Tomato puree

Grated cheese

It is truely awesome. Even if Will says it's weird how I can put Mayo in it. Who cares, It Rocks!

Mmmm.

I looked into the mirror today.

I then stood on my bed so I could see my whole body clearly.

I smiled.

I've lost weight from my tummy.

I can now look slimmer.

SO happy

So to say thanks to myself, I made myself my AWESOME pasta (which has the craziest sauce - i'll post that later) And another coffee.

I know this won't help with losing weight, but you have to treat yourself once in a while. I've deserved it.

^.^

RAR

:D

I have decided to start again.

No, I will not start a fresh. No, I will not start a flaming diet.

Can you see me sticking to that? Because I sure can't.

But yes, it is pretty simple.

I'm wanting to smile. Heck, I smile a lot already. Even though I do tend to get upset and wound up and stressed and anxious and OH WHAT THE HECK! :L But, my point is, I'm actually wanting to perhaps try to spread it.

If that is even possible.

I know what people go through, and I am always there for them.

-HEAR THAT?- always.

But smiles are cute, every single one.

In fact, every one has an individual smile.

It's like winking.

I did this survey at school

Ok

It wasn't a survey, it was me asking round my friends to wink at me (giggles) and some look hilarious whilst some are just hot. Ehem. Moving on.

Mine is a bit 'spaztic' as Sophe called it. O.o It can't be that bad can it?

Moving back onto my main subject.

I want to see my dudes smiling more, because you're all gorgeous with it. Everyone is 'fuck-ugly' without 'em. Let's face it.

Just a grin, is all I ask of you. It's not that bad, I tell you.

I do like the fact that people do read these, I'd just like a few comments too (or is that too much?)

Nighty night night night. -XOX-

Is it weird to think, that the most beautiful part about me - if anything - is my hands.

This is what I think. One of the only things about my features I like.

- IT'S A SHAME THERE IS NO RED, JUST BLUE'S AND PURPLES -

It was such a beautiful day. (Even though it was Raining and snowing and hailing)

I saw Charis, she's still a bit too quiet for me. She needs to come out of her shell a bit. But she's still awesome. Then after she went to catch her bus and leave me, I bumped into Will and Katie (with their bags of WHO KNOWS WHAT) and then carried on on my own LOL :P

Then I saw Molly, but didn't see her for long (only a me seeing her, she didnt see me) O.o

And then saw Sean :D:D And text him telling him that. THEN bumped into the wonderful Molly again :L She's so amazingly awesome <3

 

And straight after the text, i sent to sean, he calls me :D:D and asks me where he was and i am now.. And so we meet up. I mean, he asked me ^.^ So we spent a couple of hours getting hyper off coffee and Mountain Dew. It was ACE. He taught me how to make flowers using paper. Seriously, he is hot, cute and a great friend.

It's a shame he's going off to the army next year AND has a gf. You know, I think he might have considered me. 

Meh, tis Saturday, don't forget that Harriet. Fingers crossed that that goes more than perfect for you (yn)  :D

FUCK THIS

I'm so pissed off. And I think it's because of Ethan.

He knows I'm upset. He knows I'm really upset. 

Ok, yes, he called me pretty, but that does not excuse the fact that he joined a group that was SO predjudise (YES I FUCKING NO IT'S SPELT WRONG)

'I Will Never Understand Why Guys Cheat On Pretty Girls With Ugly Ones.'

This was the group. I MEAN SERIOUSLY? I HATE IT. BITCHY ALL FOR NOTHING COWS. The not-so-pretty ones only get shit. (his cue for saying, 'it's not so bad for you. You are pretty') Fuck. No I AM NOT. and if i was, it doesn't mean i can't help out those who are being treated like dogs. It's disgusting.

And for all he knows, i could be upset because of something else. In my pm is - :'( I hate this - based on the fact it's ME who's losing HIM.

I hate his gf. She's taking him away. And I have no way of letting him know, in a way that EVERYONE else will know.

 We had such an awesome talk about silly things. I miss that now.

But anyway, the rest of my day was awesome =D

Ok. So Pancake day was originally meant to be spent with My Favourite Ellen and with her friend Ieuan (the guy I really like!) But that won't happen because apparently he's busy :(

But instead, I am going into the town of Lancaster avec Charis <3 what a beaut. She truely is. Inside and out. I haven't seen her in over 5 months! I know. That's long. Considering we're the best of facebook friends. She is my Pancake.

So it is Saturday with Ieuan and Ellen. I hope this won't cancel. I can't spend another month imagining something that won't happen. Only I know how mad my little brain ponders the thought of actually being with someone who cares. No. That's not fair. Adam did. Twice.

Oooooh. By the way bloggers (or btw if you must) I had a dream.

I know

Shocking!

I was hiding. This dude called Declan was in it, and he kissed me. I know! What the hell?! Why?

And then, I saw Tim (my ex-ex, who ate me up without realising) And he looked so different. Unrecognisable. He told me it was Tim. I hugged him. Trying to feel him again. He shrugged me off.

And I saw Ethan with that slut of a girlfriend (of course I won't tell him how I feel, because the rest of his friends have done that. I'm standing by him here) But yeah, he was there with her, and they stood on their own, looking at me pretending they weren't. As if they thought I was an interesting case of Rabies. [possible spelling error]

I didn't go up to them. What I did do in this dream, was hide. I hid throughout.

Could this have any meaning?

I can't stop crying. What's wrong with me?

Oopsy, made myself sick, again.

If Momma gives me a good Saturday, then my Tuesday will be even better.

I must go. (pancake day!) xD

Valentines Day means nothing to me.

Pancake Day however.. ;) Yum ;D Cannot wait.

Ieuan + Ellen + Me = three fat poopers :P Mm Pancakes!

So So Cute.

Falling asleep in my lessons.. Tut tut.

I blame the performances. I'm gonna miss it though.

I like being there and having people around, to simply get along with.

And after it's all done, everyone goes their separate ways.

But it is good. And I have now caught up on my sleep. Yay!

Oh, and Kaytee reads my things xD Haha. (won't find much, missy!)

Hell yeah!

My writing is coming along.

1657 words so far, about my fictional characters, 

Rosa and Leo. (May think of an older name for Leo though.)

SO happy about this.

Too bad about my school work, eh? Ha.

Who actually cares.... Apart from Momma... 

O.o