Not only are people asking me questions about everything, but my 'relationship' is now in my hands. It's up to me to break up with him. But he should break up with me. I'm the bitch who wants someone else. I'm the liar. I hate what i do to people, I swear i'm cursed. I never get things right.
He comes onto facebook chat and say the simple 'hey'.. no smileys, which is odd, no exclamation marks.. no nothing, just a hey. I reply. And ask how he is. He isn't good.. because his two 'friends' whom are the terrible twosome, i know them quite well, and they can be bitches.. They hacked his facebook and found out about our relationship. Crap. So once i've broken off with him, they are gonna ask me questions.. Like last time. I feel so bad for what i've done. But what he hasn't done, is ask how i am.. And so the topic changes.. 'Do you still want to go out with me?' I do the 'Brb' thing.. and complain to Em.. Then run to the bathroom to throw up, because i can't take things well at the moment. I just can't stop shaking or anything. Stress i assume. I come back, and tell him i was sick. But he asks me again!! so i close my facebook tab. I'm worried, I hate this.
He's 'fallen' for me, but he's 14.. Two years younger than me, well technically 1 1/2. But he's younger than my brother! And that is bad. He's tall (again) and nice to me. But he's not 'it'. Argh. Em will not be pleased that i'm avoiding him. Yikes. Fail.
And you give until there's nothing to give - The Script - Fall For Anything.
Okay, so i went back onto facebook and hid from the chat.
I looked at my new email.. From him. It read:
'please just answer yes or no?
maybe you've gone to be sick :-s
if you dont like me, i reall wont mind,
w-b soon !
x i love you x '
Okay, it's not normal to be sick, and i told him i can't cope with things well.. but still he's not too concerned! Argh. And then he says 'i won't mind'.. he obviously will! but then.. the 'i love you'??? Come on.. that doesn't make things better, it worsens the situation by double! if it were a simple kiss, then heh.. but NO!
Serious rant.. :(
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