Last Day.

7:00
I look outside to see a load of frost covering the garden, pretty. I'm getting myself ready for school, Last day. Mum comes in, 'Sorry pet, you just don't sound quite right.' It's true, i do actually sound like Brooke Davies in One Tree Hill.. Haha.

9:00
I'm listening to songs. Some songs remind me of him. I need time to get over him, but i can't stop thinking of the what if. It truely does hurt me. I see his name appear on facebook, because he's posted a status. I see he's still talking to a few friends. But there's nothing.

The definition of Crush: The object of somebody’s crush: the person who is the object of somebody’s romantic infatuation (informal). Most boys never realize that ignoring a girl who has a crush on them does not help, but hinders the situation.

This is where i feel i have more of a "crush" on this guy. I think i may have fallen for him, and hurt myself along the way.

I create scenarios in my head about what could happen. I hate saying goodbyes. And here I am doing both, saying goodbye. Letting go. And thinking of the effects. Will he want me back? Will he apologise for what he's done? Will he just ignore me? Will he want to be my best friend? Will he beg to see me? Or will he break my heart again? For all he knows, I'm still going out with Adam. And for all I know, he's still going out with Beth. I miss his hugs, I miss his kisses, I miss his playfulness, I miss spending time with him, it was never wasting time, I miss him.

♬Everybody Says: "Time Heals Everything." But What Of The Wretched Hollow? The Endless In-Between? Are We Just Going To Wait It Out? In The One Life That We've Got. - Imogen Heap - Wait It Out.