A slap on a winter's eve

I sometimes feel like I get close to you, as in 'in a friendly way', but then you have parties and such, and I'm not there, I'm not invited - I'm forgotten -

Is this to do with how my parents are more strict than yours on me getting drunk? Or is this more to do with me, and how people think of me differently when I'm not there. Because sometimes, I feel like I've had someone slap me across the face on a cold winter's evening.

What am I to do? I can't even say this to your face, because we don't even have serious conversations.