Haribo Sweets

Ok. So Pancake day was originally meant to be spent with My Favourite Ellen and with her friend Ieuan (the guy I really like!) But that won't happen because apparently he's busy :(

But instead, I am going into the town of Lancaster avec Charis <3 what a beaut. She truely is. Inside and out. I haven't seen her in over 5 months! I know. That's long. Considering we're the best of facebook friends. She is my Pancake.

So it is Saturday with Ieuan and Ellen. I hope this won't cancel. I can't spend another month imagining something that won't happen. Only I know how mad my little brain ponders the thought of actually being with someone who cares. No. That's not fair. Adam did. Twice.

Oooooh. By the way bloggers (or btw if you must) I had a dream.

I know

Shocking!

I was hiding. This dude called Declan was in it, and he kissed me. I know! What the hell?! Why?

And then, I saw Tim (my ex-ex, who ate me up without realising) And he looked so different. Unrecognisable. He told me it was Tim. I hugged him. Trying to feel him again. He shrugged me off.

And I saw Ethan with that slut of a girlfriend (of course I won't tell him how I feel, because the rest of his friends have done that. I'm standing by him here) But yeah, he was there with her, and they stood on their own, looking at me pretending they weren't. As if they thought I was an interesting case of Rabies. [possible spelling error]

I didn't go up to them. What I did do in this dream, was hide. I hid throughout.

Could this have any meaning?